Weird feeling..

Since the back if these day.. I always feel like I want to cry.. But on the other side, I dont really want to.. Its too much pain..
This feeling had been hurting me for so long, it like that something missing..
I always think about people lost their love one.. Their friends.. Family and other..
This night I try to shout my feeling really hard but it seem nothing working..
Even when I was writting this, I feel like i want to cry.. What has gone in to me?
Am I getting crazy? I do feel lonely.. No one to laugh with.. Sing with.. Play with.. No one right now.  They all seem so busy..

I wish this feeling immediately disappear.. I dont like it. Its haunt me.